i nearly got shoved into an oncoming subway train today. the trains approaching, and im passing this big dude on the narrow pathways next to the stairways (jah kno?). and as i was passing him, he reaches out or something…almost shoving me onto the tracks b4 he grabs me and goes, “damn…sorry!” so i nearly got smacked into pudding by a train…and it was interesting, b/c i was thinking id get the obligatory flashing life in front of my eyes. playing in the dirt piles of texas….punching and kicking my sis when we were kids….my first girlfriend in first grade (natalie….*sigh*) but nope…none of that. instead…the thing that did pop in my mind was not to swear as i cried, “holy……cow?” cow. ok then. not shit. or even crap. but cow? that wouldve been prolly the crappiest…i mean, shittiest way to die. thinking abt childrens ears when im abt to die. *earmuffs*
