saturday night and i’m at home popping donut holes, chugging a coke, and blasting justice’s “phantom part 2” to (hopefully) piss off my obnoxious neighbors who’ve done the same to me. normally this would be ok…i’m quite fond of relaxation. but lately it’s done nothing but irk me. i’ve been restless today. i actually thought i had something to do tonight…but that went down the shitter, for reasons i’ll go into. you see, i was going to hang with a girl tonight. but sometime between this morning and now, i lost that desire.
i’d actually been on match. dating and meeting people in this vast city can seem daunting, so after being pressed by numerous friends, and having seen the fruitful results of others giving it a shot, i thought i’d give it a shot as well. and hmm, it started off spectacularly. i went on my first date within days of signing on. nothing sparked, but it was still fun. the second date was more fruitful…felt a connection, and was genuinely interested in getting to know her better. we actually continued messaging each other through the week. except the messaging was odd…erratic, and more prone to me consoling and doling out advice than actual conversation. weird, but whatever…maybe some people are just better in person than chatting. i’ll spare the details, but at some it just felt like i was trying to talk someone off a ledge. hmm…k, i suppose this is the ‘getting to know someone’ part, and it’s not looking pretty. maybe this whole time i was fixated on her cuteness and less on her mildly depressing state of mind. was she like this during the date? i can’t even recall at this point.
we were going to meet up to do something tonight, but after another round of waahing and my quickly losing any desire to actually meet up, i sort of just let the last message i received slide to the side, then immediately sought counseling from a reliable (female) friend. the conclusion? girls are weird.
epilogue
maybe i’m attracted to odd girls…maybe only odd girls are in turn attracted to me. finding a normal girl is looking exceedingly difficult. my track record seems less than stellar at this point. as a continuation of the match story though, i went on a third date shortly after the other girl. no connection there either, but we did get a good laugh out of our past dates. i have one coming up monday too…most likely the last in the foreseeable future. i’m hoping she’s normal.