saturday night and i\u2019m at home popping donut holes, chugging a coke, and blasting justice\u2019s \u201cphantom part 2<\/i>\u201d to (hopefully) piss off my obnoxious neighbors who\u2019ve done the same to me. normally this would be ok\u2026i\u2019m quite fond of relaxation. but lately it\u2019s done nothing but irk me. i\u2019ve been restless today. i actually thought i had something to do tonight\u2026but that went down the shitter, for reasons i\u2019ll go into. you see, i was going to hang with a girl tonight. but sometime between this morning and now, i lost that desire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i\u2019d actually been on match. dating and meeting people in this vast city can seem daunting, so after being pressed by numerous friends, and having seen the fruitful results of others giving it a shot, i thought i\u2019d give it a shot as well. and hmm, it started off spectacularly. i went on my first date within days of signing on. nothing sparked, but it was still fun. the second date was more fruitful\u2026felt a connection, and was genuinely interested in getting to know her better. we actually continued messaging each other through the week. except the messaging was odd\u2026erratic, and more prone to me consoling and doling out advice than actual conversation. weird, but whatever\u2026maybe some people are just better in person than chatting. i\u2019ll spare the details, but at some it just felt like i was trying to talk someone off a ledge. hmm\u2026k, i suppose this is the \u2018getting to know someone\u2019 part, and it\u2019s not looking pretty. maybe this whole time i was fixated on her cuteness and less on her\u00a0mildly depressing state of mind. was she like this during the date? i can\u2019t even recall at this point.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
we were going to meet up to do something tonight, but after another round of waahing and my quickly losing any desire to actually meet up, i sort of just let the last message i received slide to the side, then immediately sought counseling from a reliable (female) friend. the conclusion? girls are weird.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
epilogue<\/b><\/p>\n\n\n\n
maybe i\u2019m attracted to odd girls\u2026maybe only odd girls are in turn attracted to me. finding a normal girl is looking exceedingly difficult. my track record seems less than stellar at this point. as a continuation of the match story though, i went on a third date shortly after the other girl. no connection there either, but we did get a good laugh out of our past dates. i have one coming up monday too\u2026most likely the last in the foreseeable future. i\u2019m hoping she\u2019s normal.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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